Ups and Downs.....

It seems to be a long fortnight....since last blogging

My health has been so up and down....although there is a bit of progress....I think....
I made a desicion to eliminate caffeine and added sugars...and I believe that it may have brought about a small reduction in pain......instill in pain across shoulders...shoulder blades...elbows...wrists and hands...hips...knees and feet....but when my unwanted visitor comes it hasn't been with such angst.

His visits to these parts of my body have been a little manageable...however...maybe it comes at other costs...like...intense visits to jaw,chest and ribs...later night the intensity of his  visit arrived without warning...

It was shocking and felt as though an elephant sat  upon my chest....it engulfed me for the majority of the night...I did take my
Stongest  medication....
I got out of bed to try to better to cope....and listened to my relaxation CD....the result was the same so I returned to bed to continue to toss and turn....and what it felt like.....or what I wished for....was kg being shedwith the intense sweating that was occurring...

Finally my visitor retreated a little...enough to drift to sleep....I awoke just as I began to think about bodies spontaneously combusting...with sweat pouring off me again...... I dragged my body out of bed to consider if this possible with extreme heat radiating from within....

I was so off balanced it was a challenge to even move through the house.

The night was long.....and hot.....

Here's hoping no such pain arrives unexpectantly tonight.....

F is for frightened.....of the unpredictability.....

New Fibro Support Group....

Day by day....step by step...
Is how this very long week has progressed....

My weary body has been in a typical flare....for five days now...I think it's worked its way through my body...mind...and strength....and I'm hoping my visitor will soon leave...

I really want to reflect back to the beginning of the week, when my gorgeous daughter and I prepared for our very first Fibromyalgia support group launch.

We pushed ourselves so much to get all the cupcakes made and decorated pretty for this night.I was pretty organized nd had prepared my library of resources....for borrowing...supper roster....feedback sheets...and a structure to the meeting that I thought would proceed well.

And it actually did..

There were nine attendees...
And it was the very first one..

So extatic about the turn up..

It was amazing to see that everyone that attended was comfortable to share their journey and openly open their heart to the group..

They are a very courageous group of women...
And I'm so glad I was able to have this opportunity to meet them and to be able to further support our community.

The group decided to meet on a fortnight basis....so that's what we are going to do.

As that night was coming to a close...cold icy wind was increasing outdoors....we could hear the howling from indoors....and we encouraged eachother to leave to ensure a safe trip home.....the storm would soon be approaching....

Unfortunately with that came a drop in barometric pressure....by the time I have arrived home from my Fibromyalgia meeting. I was totally overcome by my very painful fibro visitorThere was no sneaking in this time and he arrived with a grand entrance...

The intensity of pain was high...Nd I was nearly unable to undress....I slowly climbed straight into a warm bed after reaching for the strongest of medications that I have.

I was totally riddled in pain from head to toe...this is where my visitor stayed until I drifted into my sleep....

I am proud though....as I have managed to drag myself to work each morning...and made it..
Somehow through my four hr shift......As the week progressed my body became more fatigued..
Off balanced...and just overcome with a feeling of  general unwellness throughout.

Anyway....I hear the wea
ther is to improve..


Keeping my fingers crossed...for a better day tomorrow...

F is for Fatigue...

Spring......

So with the beautiful gorgeous sun rays  today also came and equally lovely message...

Someone very dear to me wrote....

Perseverance = love of (family and friends) x by (inner strength + character )overtime x by the square of infinity.
Now it should look somewhat more mathematical......but not all of us so luckily blessed with a head full of mathematical terms and equations.....

A huge thank you for this beautiful equation....my Bestie......

It's amazing what spring can do.... The warmth of the sun rays....and hopefully benefits of vitamin D.....
All around you feels and looks so much more beautiful....

I finally got through a night last night  with numbness,pain and an overwhelming feeling through out my legs...
Arm pain and an overall shadow of restlessness lay upon me....It was finally good to see the mornings rays to begin my day.

 I have had an amazing day.....I have conquered my ten minute walk.....
So excited..... So maybe my reward today if the beautiful gift of spring....and.....the powerful mathematical equation.....someone special....wrote for me.....

Heres hoping my Fibro visitor....
Is now far away.....well....at least left my neighborhood...



AM hoping for a successful day that enables me to have a forfiled morning at work tomorrow...and a continued reduction in pain...

F is for....Fortunate....