The wind was howling....and the trees even sounded creepy scrapping and squeeling against the weatherboards and spouting....back and forth....
Back and forth.....so repatitiously....
The storm hadn't only arrived outdoors but my unwanted visitor had also made a sudden and dramatic entry also....he began from my head......sat in my chest...ribs...and worked his way down through every joint and bone within my body...
So I thought perhaps he was doing somethings like...ice chisel design...but only in my jaw...and perhaps with an axe instead????but without the blood....cause I'm not a gross kind of girl....and really hate blood...
The pain was intolerable...I was miserable....and tried to think of silly things gs like this...axe chisel design...who would think of this in this state of despair...restlessness and nowhereness early in the morning in my hrs of darkness....me....and my creativeness....Ha Ha...well its my way of trying to avoid tears....try to make light of it...
And it's a conversation that people don't really hear....well except for you guys....and can stay some what within my head...So
So thinking about it all creatively...and last night was also a difficult night...with joint pain in all joints...I woke so often and couldn't even move without the pain disturbing sleep.It felt so raw like the skin ws peeled back and muscles and tendons were exposed...
Fibro was there laughing out loud at me....unfortunatly he has been so much stronger this week...but he has to now fight my mind...it's growing some strength...he may have won the battle of the body but I won't let him win totally!!
Remember I'm not going to sit on the sidelines any more....
Today is another day....and I can feel him already...he's here sitting in my knees...in my jaw...already...being sneeky...I will hit him soon with my morning meds....and positive mind...spirit....and start my day....james blunt is playing...and starting me into the day that will be...The gorgeous sun is shinning and it's going to be very hot again...aarrgggg....Fibro loves this silly heat....and thrives on it....so need to really pace in this weather....and be careful with the air conditioners as they can also cause a flare ....either way Fibro said....bring on this hot summer day!!!
Anyway....I am ready as I will be...to try to have some yogurt to have my meds....get showered...thats allways so tricky!!!! And exhausting.....and that's the beginning....of any of my days.....
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