Resonating pain....

Todays weather forecast was was predicting a high of 42 degree scorcher....and all I could imagine before the day had even began was how this would impact upon my fibro ridden body.

I was at at work and little did people know...
My spine actually felt as though someone had the largest vegatable peeler known to man kind....and very unlikely peeled a thick layer of skin off my spin....it felt so raw from the pain that I felt from the top to the bottom....just the simple light touch of the brush of my office chair against it felt like an intense inferno....

About that time a colleague actually said..you seem to be doing so much better these days....
Hmmmmmm...I took one of those big swallows...when you know your about to loose it.....and I said...actually the pain is just the same as it has allways been...
She said....what strategies are you using.....implying I seem so much better....(which was nice)it was then my eyes filled with tears and I struggled with my words and said....I'm just dealing with it a little differdntly emotionally these  days.....im more excepting of the condition....it's not going to change...so I do have to get used to living like this....

With that I said.....But I can't talk about it or this happens.....and began to cry a little....but was brave for it was just a moment in time.....

It's then I noticed...it's the unspokenwords....they are kind of ok....they sit there...in your mind....and in your head....yet when .they are spoken....and are loud....and carry a sound....and resonate around you and become loud and then real....they hurt!! And they bring the tears....and the pain.....even if only for a moment.....

So bloody frustrating that pain lives within me every single day....and of recent times it's friend has been the severe pins and needles....so annoying....

Anyway my resonating pain was not only within my mind....but truly within my body today....the heat effected me so much.Between high level of pain and fatigue today was frustrating....

Positive outcome for today....I did manage to work through some of my report writing today....and settle my new staff member into her new role as well....
And tomorrow is a new day.....and the forecast is not supposed to be in the 40s horray!!!....

F is for .......  Fibromyalgia....