Well...as I've mentioned previously this is going to be my year of participation....
Wow what a statement that was....but I'm sticking by it....and I have even been participating in work...
And loving it!!!! Well loving the fact I love what I do....I work with amazing people....we all have amazing similar ethics...devoted to supporting children with inclusion...and participation....
Although I had been really struggling behind my four walls...in the inner sanctum...my very rude...obnoxious unwanted fibro visitor decided to pay me a surprise visit.to work......not just any visit...a grand entrance into my chest...where I was overwhelmed...it took me by such surprise I needed a moment to compose myself.
Excused myself as I momentralily.... shed some brief shock tears, took pain relief....wiped away the tears, took a deep breath and attempted to step back into my meeting...
Fortunately it was then morning tea time and I was able to find time to sit quietly and fight my unwanted visitor away...his strength today was tremendous...and mine weak...and tired..I knew that after taking several pain relieving tablets with breaky and a couple more again...he was not going to shift...and I was not going to cope....
It was embarrassing but my boss came out to me and although I looked pretty calm...She knew....and it was then I gave in to my unwanted visitor....and went to the emergency department.
I was given phentynl which is the only one I am not allergic to...so it was a very long day spent in hospital as they too grappled with my unwanted visitor....he even fought them...and was very persistent...
Finally I was home in the evening to rest...but he was still lingering in my chest and they told me to take endone...so I did.... Exhausted...drained...and still feeling some pain I snuggled with my cat and hot pack and finally drifted to a better place....for a few hrs anyway....
Since this day I have seen my pain specialist and I am now going to have more testing...I have continued to have constant pain bone pain in my arms and legs as well...well it feels like bone pain....
AM seeing a neurologist to have a full work up...will be interesting...
But anyway...meanwhile I have increased Topamx dosage 50mg per day so will see how that progresses...so I am now taking 150mg per day.
No side effects so that's one positive.....yeah.....
Will go now legs are really hurting.....
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