Salt and Pepper.....1

So with this mornings pain and agony....I pushed myself to undress and struggle to get into the shower..
My arms were like lead weights once again...and the pain radiated immediently from within my elbows as I raised my arms to begin the ritual of the hair wash process.

I recently purchased pump packs in my favorite natural shampoo and conditioner...it really helps not to have to hold any thing with my hands...the chore of washing my hair is sometimes nearly unbearable...and I can't even complete the whole process....some mornings...like this morning...I had washed...a little but my hands hurt so much...and then the pins and needles came...and I hadn't even washed out the shampoo....
I reached for my trusty bathroom stool....I just had to sit in the shower and allow the shampoo to run out...and over my body...without the assistance of my hands...I needed to save what strength was left for drying my self....and dressing to prepare for work.....My new day had begun....

After this...and some girly chats today...I have decided...to make one of the biggest decisions I have made.I must be so vain!! Because it's really effecting me...and is a huge deal to me...so...firstly you need to know I am 42 and have fairly dark...nearly black hair...probably shoulder length and very thick.Now its so dark that it freaks me out when I have horrific grey hair come shooting through as it does....so like many women of today...I dye it....simply because I'm not ready to be grey just yet.

But there are significant changes in the wind in this house hold....today is the day I have decided I am not going to dye my hair any more! And tomorrow I am going to the hairdresser to get it cut  really short...in hope the transition from this to that....or pepper to salt....  In hope it Happens a little quicker....and a little less painlessly...

I hope to embrace the new me...and know that I will no longer be pouring such. Chemicals Into my body each month....maybe it will help my fibro pain?????

I'm really scared....of how it will look as it transitions..... But I am being really positive about the eventual outcome....which at the max will be 4-6months.... It will be so much easier for my hands...less work to style.etc...and no more chemicals....so my hands are going go be forever eternally greatful!!
Oh and the other big thing about my decision is I haven't told hubby....he has nagged me for years to stop dying my hair and go....gracefully grey....as he puts it...ha ha...(lets see how graceful he really thinks it is)

I know I will not sleep tonight as I prepare for the big chop....but I will remind myself....it's for the greater good....my hands...and arms....and better wellbeing.....


Salt and pepper here I come..........will keep you posted....

F is for Fear.....