Day 3- trans magnetic stimulation trial
Each day although I know how it will feel I slide into the recliner with some apprehension.
The machine is today started a higher level and soon moved to it full strength.For me today I can say although it is not painful I felt immediate shock of its full force.
My eye brow quickly jerked around and my eyes watered somewhat,although not painful the sensation is today nearly overwhelming,I wished it would soon end with each interval...
With each interval my body was over come with a strong wave of goosebumps and coldness... again nothing painful just another sensation.
As I left treatment and embarked on my public transport trip back home,to my current home away from home.The blustery wind penetrated my skin and made its way directly to my bones.
Pain was immediate and engulfed various parts of my body.Teeth chattering and sheets of
ice landing upon my joints I await the incoming tram with desperation.
must have jumped on he wrong tram out of desperation it turned down another street,several blocks from my destination....I jumped off and navigated my way home on foot.
Icy wind penetrating my being I pushed myself to continue the walk until i arrived home into the familiar warmth of a home retreat.
My body although cold to the bone,and my usual cold weather response had quickly made its way rippling through me.... I finally warmed,rested had taken some pain meds.... the continuing usual flare did not continue.
The pain meds,warmth and rest left me feeling a high level of fatigue and whole body ache,but much to my dismay I imediently noticed the level of pain did not increase. For me in my 5 years having this condition this was the first time that the pattern of pain changed.
The evening wasnt the evening or intensity that my daily routine normally represents...it was more of a subtle pain.... until the early hours of the morning arrived...i was sharpley woken with the familiar sharp and nagging chest pain that usually resides within me....the overwhelming pain that increases without question or reason and prevents sleep or even a peaceful night.
Morning didnt come soon enough,as darkness faded from both body and sky it was finally time to begin a new day of treatment......
F is for..... finally..... a slight change....and a small glimmer of what may be....
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