Admission Day!

It's now 5.45AM and I have been awake for hours.......

I'm being admitted into hospital later this morning to begin my Ketamine treatment for my Fibromyalgia.

I have a mass of butterflies in my stomach ...who ever new they could come in such masses...or is that....swarms.....or flock....Bunch........anyway I'm really not sure.

If your reading and still following this AB you might know?  Keep me posted with that one.....
Anyway they are quite strong and I feel as though they could at any time flutter out from within me.....

Note to self for future reference....never watch utube videos for medical procedures.

My fear surrounds what I saw with the Picc line being put in.....it's a medical procedure in its self,and involves a scalpel and blood....I'm going to ask for some sedation! If that's not able to happen,I'm going to listen to blearingly loud James Blunt, Adele,or Missy Higgins.....not sure which one yet.


I'm hoping this will be allowed.....So I was told once I'm admitted the Picc lady will visit me to get the process started....clearly my mind is too active.....I conjure up a vision of the old advertisement  that was once on the TV "the grim reaper"..... But mine is a female and pick in one hand she's shuffling after me down the hospital corridor.....

Well today's the day.....Here's hoping it will be soon a few days ahead of time, not that I want or need to be older,or have any more wrinkles,or Grey hairs.......

I am fearful of the unknown and all the medical intervention that will soon be.....I can't look at needles,blood or procedures that are occurring to ME......

Well....time to stop rambling and begin the day into the unknown.....

Stay tuned as I venture out the trip of a lifetime.......literally.......

Sccccaarryyyyy.........

For is for Freaky......and Frightened.....