Wipe Out Wednesday

It was Wednesday which,started off not too badly. As per usual later in the day became the biggest struggle.As my will became defeated by the strenth of my fibro pain that was now beginning to consume me.
I mustered the strength to leave my desk and drive home.....once I arrive home to a quiet, dark and cold home it was then chest and rib pain totally possessed my body and mind.

With tears streaming down my cheeks I searched for life within the quietness.....my 16 year old son was studying furiously and did not really even pause enough to see the pain  that I was in.
Not to give the wrong idea of my teenager but as a teenager with Asphergers his reply was.....I have priorities mum.....3 exams tommorow.......I was shattered!.......

I began to get the vegetables out to prepare tea,it was then I realized just how beaten I really was....I rang hubby who had headed off on his night shift,I couldn't even manage a conversation with the now enraged forceful pain heavier than ever within my chest.

I ran my ever trusty eldest daughter who joins us most evenings for tea.Immediently she knew......and had soon arrived to assist.It's overwhelming presence had arrived again and we made the decision to go to hospital......If it was not my heart it was certainly something which was raging out of control within me and this time I has no strenth to fight against it.

Fortunatly we were able to be seen immediently......It took some time prior to any relief being offered because of all my drug sensitivities......

The Dr admitted he had not come across Fibromyalgia before and I'm sure was off doing some speed reading....whilst awaiting my cardiac enzyme results to come back.

I was finally given an intra muscular injection....It was very painful in my bum, I just focused on my the beautiful blue eyes of my granddaughter (6 months) looking on bewildered....

My chest pain appeared to be increasing.....I felt so out of control of my own body.....crying and miserable just longing for the pain to leave.....

It didn't leave and in fact  to needed other drugs to try to urge it to go away....again it fought with the drugs and tirelessly with my exhausted body....

Another couple of nasty drugs were given to me as the next Dr on duty told me he had not treated such a severe case of Fibromyalgia.He was greatfull that I was soon undertaking a Ketamine treatment in Mel ourne.

All the staff were warm and caring....my beautiful  daughters were with me through this unpleasant experience.... And both very brave.....unlike their mother.....who had shed homeless and defeatful  tears most of the evening.

My eldest had kept hubby posted with every move as he was off driving in NSW somewhere picking up milk from varied dairy farmers.

So it was finally here were a combination of many drugs sent that nasty fibro pain away.....As I drifted into a deep medicated sleep.

My wipout Wednesday is now Friday and I'm still taking strong medication to keep fibro from visiting me again......I don't hold the strength within me to fight off its stony ability to overwhelm me and wipe me out.....here hoping my Ketamine treatment comes around really soon......Something to look toward with hope......

The shadow of my fibro visitor is still looming.......I am feeling a bit everywhere and off balance........ will rest now......