Today's Saturday and my flare up still rages within me.

I have rested so much and felt the effects of medication but have decided  see if I can go a day without complaint . My family have showed incredible strength as I fight this monster within me....My strength is waning and I need to change something around,I need to be feeling okay when my Ketamine treatment begins this month! I will muster my brief energies to pull myself together to also help support my family .I see the worried faces and hear the hushed conversations.....I will see what I can do.

So its Saturday and hubby is due to head off to night shift, at least will will provide him for relief of this tiresome condition . Kids will rerun later, one at work and the other two still return for tea.They will all scramble in the kitchen to create a yummy meal, and now do not even have the expectation that I will make tea.

This is their life at the moment,I wish I could be a better mum......wife and company........
When did life become so complex with multiple  chronic medical conditions to take into consideration.....

It is what it is......now I will use this method to complain but I will try not to bring a heavier burden to my family who actually endure Fibro also on a daily basis.....just in a different way.

I'm going to be brave this evening.....not take the strong medication....so will even be present with the kids....have not done this for the past several days....It's been a very vague few days of challenge

F is for frustrating.......

So here goes......keep posted and see how our emotions can travel this road....

Have decided will be like when we were all children and truly believed in the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow......

Let's see how it goes....join me o this journey until my Ketamine treatment later in the month.