13 Days to go until Ketamine Infusion

So this really represents how I'm feeling, 13 days to go and I will begin my 5 day Ketamine Infusion.

I couldn't take my mind away from the pain today, with the wide spread ache throughout my whole being. Was imagining what it would actually be like with out it again.

I am very terrified, have read about it and watched some YouTube videos. I don't encourage others to do that.....I'm not a fan of being out of control on meds so this actually is freaking me right out, here's hoping the next 13 days goes quickly.

F is for frightened.......

I was asked during that assessment what I would really like to do again.......where to begin......

Hanging the washing, mopping the floor, all those motherly tasks that most other non fibro mums do. I was quickly redirected to the fun things...so for me, holding a book so I can read again. Although I have swapped to an e reader, I do miss my books.

Practicing my violin, walking with friends, shopping with my girls, bike riding with my hubby....the newest and very precious moment that I can't enjoy as  I now wish ..... is holding my beautiful 6 month old granddaughter.

Today's been a timely reminder of what this journey will be about, looking forward with hope and anticipation for what might be again.

F is for Fibromyalgia and future..........