Weaning of medication...

So I have again been engulphed with this wakefulness during the night.
My mind has been racing.....and tears were flowing....my mind was full of grieving of what I once was....and what I have now become....and the feeling of somehow feeling incomplete....

Thoughts of.....why....and how I will be able to endure this condition....and what it brings to me in the future.Is this relentless Fibro visitor going to just loitering around within me and reap havoc at his discretion.....with no warning....or with no reasoning....

The process of discovery that I also going through with all other added symptoms.... Questions for myself that I can't yet respond to.... Do I have Muscular Dystrophy.... Or Parkinson Disease.... And all of the unwanted anxiety that is associated with this un known journey of medical testing.....

My mind wanders to other places I don't particularly want it to take me.... Of old memories...world changes...and challenges.... And of coarse all current news and events with the world...
Children....and their rights and the worthiness and power  of the UN rights for children.... And how future changes will hopefully be brought about.....and how these things will effect things of the past....and those of the future....

I'm hoping as I progress through this drug weaning process... My mind will again relax....my eyes stop flowing.....and my anxieties decrease....and the darkness will  lift....


My mind and body are exhausted and I feel as though this internal fight is a contaigon I'm passing along to others.... Everyone's anxious....
 And I think I'm the cause....I don't mean to stress... Or hurt....or burden others....
 And I now just wish for this time to pass...

I'm going to today gather my strengths....use them to push myself to enjoy the gorgeous day that is.....
Try to relax and go with the flow...

The sun's warmth will shadow and embrace me and hopefully bring a lift to both body and soul...

Here's....looking forward to the complete process of weaning off this medication....Things to settle internally and for the new process of a new fibro medication to begin...

The future will be bright and beautiful....I just need to be strong....positive.... And hang on to to former fighting spirit..... Or actually find it again......

F....is for fighting.....as I work through this pharmaceutical nightmare!!