My body riddled with unfamiliar sensations buzzing through both my arms and legs....and I thought restless legs were bad!!
I had been off balanced all day with a queezy uneasy feeling engulfing my whole body....Even walking was difficult.The day passed but last night was horrific....
I tossed and turned....cried....got up and down all night and hoped panadol would lessen the pain and sensation in my limbs...Ha Ha... It only laughed back at my body and continued raging the war within me....
I was sweaty....and then came the intense gut wrenching pains trying to rip my stomach apart....I could only lay in silence....In the darkness....and cry....again!
I wished for the darkness to soon lift and impatiently waited for that magic beam of morning light to appear through the curtain edge....it did not come....well not while I waited anyway.
The night was the longest ever....I wish the DR so could have told me that coming of the meds would be so harsh....I only imagined it would be difficult....and luckily took this week of work as well.
I just didn't actually have any clue!! I was stupid to think it would be just a challenge for a day or so....
It's actually a nightmare....and it brings all of your life's miseries with it.....
It engulphed you....keeps you in the dark....and holds you there.....for what seems an eternity...
Until the morning light finally filters its way into your internal fight.
The sun is well and truly. Now and I have managed to eat and keep down a piece of fruit toast....although I'm just wanting to eat jelly.....
It's quiet in our home now....although it's sunday hubby and daughter are at work and my son has his head buried in books for the coming weeks exams.
I'm not quiet sure what to do....im not going to even try to close my heavy tired eyes....im too fearful of what it will bring.... But I'm so uncomfortable I just don't want to do anything....nor do I have the strength.....I feel so crappy I must look like hell....
I see a pale and tired face starring back from the mirror....it looks as though it's strength has wained ....and doesn't quiet look familiar to me....
I need to get through this....and hope it settles soon....I am going to urge myself to shower and hope the flow of warmth over my worn body makes me feel a bit brighter....
Will see how things progress over the next 24 hrs....
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